The month of April has been full of joy and sorrow for our family. And it's only the 19th! In the midst of it all, I'm excited to see what the Lord has planned for the next few weeks. On April 1st, we were surprised to find out we were expecting! After two miscarriages last year, we were cautiously excited to welcome another baby into our family in December. The girls were especially excited and started drawing pictures of our family, including a little boy in the mix. On April 10th, we celebrated Leslie's and Bailey's birthdays together with family! It was a special day with an Easter egg hunt, an early Easter meal, fun presents, and quality time with family. Leslie continues to soften our hearts with her sweet and sensitive spirit, and Bailey can't help but bring an extra dose of laughter and joy to each and every day. On April 11th, Zach began his new job! The Lord provided a job that we hope and pray will be a good fit for our family in this season, working well with my photography as we head into busier days this summer and fall. My last update shared how I've been learning to rest in God and his promises. It honestly hasn't been easy, but he is faithful! We continue to count the days before the paychecks start rolling in... slightly anxious as we realize the numbers don't quite add up yet. It's so overwhelming sometimes, if I'm completely honest! And yet, we continue to be amazed by how God shows up, time and time again, to provide for our needs. It has been such a sweet reminder to surrender my fears and plans before the Lord. When I fix my eyes on him, my heart posture starts to change bit by bit. Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. On April 15th, we realized we were losing our hope of another baby. It is so draining and discouraging to hope when the fears seem so real and determined. The loss doesn't seem as emotional this time, instead it has left us fighting against feelings of doubt, frustration, and apathy. Friends, I'm learning to live in the tension of both/and...now and not yet. It absolutely sucks AND I'm refueled with hope when I look to the promises of Jesus in the Bible. We mourn the loss now AND look forward to a day when death will hold no sting because there is life for those in Christ! This is the best news for my weary heart! When our girls asked about our baby, we told them the truth. Juliette broke down in tears. Leslie continues to express how sad she is we lost the baby because she really wanted to know if it was a baby brother. Kady keeps asking if there's a baby in my tummy. These conversations are not for the faint of heart, y'all! But they are such a sweet opportunity to share the good news of Jesus with our girls. We keep pointing back to Jesus, and each of the girls can't help but say, "I love Jesus!" They are sad our baby is gone AND they love Jesus for holding onto life when we cannot. Our hope in Jesus is secure...cluttered counters and all! Is your hope secure? Jesus told [Martha], “I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me will never ever die. Do you believe this?”
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